I Self Divine

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 16:03:17 GMT

It truly has been a long time. I've been up to the usual, just hanging out and working.

So i really hate when my parents ask me to get some milk for them. Its not that i dont wanna buy it, or that i am too lazy to go get it. But i just fucking forget everytime. I know its gonna happen, there is no way around it. So when my parents ask me to get some milk on my way home, its just like "hey dont get the milk, and well yell at you for it tomorrow and then you'll get the milk"

So lately ive been spending a lot of time and money at cheapo. This is both good and bad.
Good- im getting more music, and i have something to show for my money spent. Conclusion: money well spent

Bad- I am spending money, i was trying to save up and get my bank account back up to its prime state of 13 hundred dollaz, but i have poor will power when it comes to music. Another bad thing, i am going to buy a turntable soon, and i have enough money for it now but i keep on spending so i dont trust myself that i will always have money. One last thing. Although i do love cheapo and it is great to support it because it is more local or whatever, sometimes their selection is kinda wack and most times it is not very cheap-o at all.

I cant decide if i like the way my summer is going socially. Its nice because i am almost always hanging out witht he dudes which is great, but i dont really hang out with anyone else.. not so great

Thats all

Deuces yo

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:06:29 GMT

Have you ever...
(X) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
( x) been dumped (sorta)
(X) shoplifted
( x) been fired
(X!) been in a fist fight
() snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(X) skipped school (like every second of every day)
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(x ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten sushi
(x) been skiing
( X) met someone in person from the internet
( ) been moshing at a concert (I like to think so)
( X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
( ) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(X) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(X) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car
(X) had braces
( X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had déjà vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
( ) felt like dying
(X ) cried yourself to sleep
(X ) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons
( ) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
( X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
( X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
( X) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to something
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
( ) believe in ghosts/spirits
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(x) gone doorbell ditching
(x) played chicken
( ) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger (My favorite, happened outside Ragstock on University Ave.: DDDAAAYYYAAMMMNNN GIRL!)
(I BROKE MY TOOTH) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x) have/had a Britney Spears CD (I have both her first ones. I really, really love Oops I Did it Again -the CD, it's one of my favorites)
(x) forgotten someones name
( ) French braided someones hair
( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
( ) been kicked out of your house

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 22:29:23 GMT

Whatup y'all

IM B--B-B-B-B-B-B-B-ACK YALL

So today was perfect out, and i played golf so i am in a pretttyy alright mood, meaning a good un.

Heres what i have done this summer-

Worked
Hung out with friends
Woken up before 6 oclock several times, far too early
Played Golf
Started hating cops more, this one cop was a major douche to me for no reason
Hung out with my brother and sister, at the same time, Thats some ill shit
Gotten a lotta music
Volunteered at homecroft helping out the little kids (reading, counting etc.)

Thats about it, for right now. Who knows what will come?!?!?!?

PS. Dylan, if you read this, i am terribly sorry about your dad. I dont really know what to say, but i cannot imagine what your going through. Stay strong dawg.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 16:34:43 GMT

How do we measure our successes and failures? Do we compare ourselves to our peers? Do we compare ourselves to those who are also successful? Can a child who grew up in an inner city public school with no domestic support be compared to the child who was in a private, "higher educational institution" all his life with parents who are Doctors and Lawyers? Or do we measure ourselves by ourselves, but then what kind of a measure is that?

Why is it that drugs are percieved as such a negative thing in our society? They effect (affect?) our brains and bodies, but so do sports. Football players experience concussions and injuries, but there is no movement to stop football. People say that drugs only hurt you, but do they? Do they not give us an alternate way of looking at things, do they not change our mindset?

Yeah sorry, I just kinda thought these questions up and wrote them down. I'm not saying you can compare drug use to playing a sport, im just throwing the idea out there.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:49:33 GMT

So today is father's day, pretty laid back at the love household. We had brunch, my brother is coming back soon for the rest of the day and my parents are in the pool. But i feel like this is gonna be another day that i get in fight with my mom. It always seems to happen on family holidays (mother's day, father's day, easter etc.) or birthdays its always about something stupid, but we both always end up getting angry. Today were prolly gonna fight about the pool. So my mom made a bullshit rule about me not being able to use the pool unless either her or my dad is home, so i can't have friends over during the day to swim. I understand the rule, but it just angers me, because my mom is such a fucking unreasonable person. Actually, her and my dad are. Whenever i come up with any argument against a rule we have, they just do not listen, it doesnt matter what the idea is but as soon as i open my mouth they shut me down and i really cant handle it. It is especially worse now that i am the only kid here, my brother is in new york, my sister is in new york.

thats all for now, i gotta go
deuces

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 19:07:09 GMT

Oh yeah, and also i know someone is gonna say something about the park being closed, well i looked at the sign at the entrance and it doesn't say shit about when the thing closes. But whateva

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 19:04:36 GMT

Fuck cops

I was down at Hidden Falls last night for a bonfire, and this cop came down and told me and two other people to leave. None of us were high or drunk, or doing anything bad or illegal. So I had to leave the bonfire. Fuck cops

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 20:51:29 GMT

So, its summer time bitches. So far, this summer has been hanging out, golf, work and my car breaking down.. kind of. So i was driving to a golf tournament wednesday mornig at like 645, and on the highway randomly the battery icon and the e-brake icon came on. Then they quickly went off, so i was a little worried, but it was 645 and there was golf to be played. The golf course was really nice, played like shit but whateva. Anyways the car worked fine until this morning , I was at SA, i put gas into the car, and after i started it back up those two icons came back on. So i was worried again, but i was on my way to tires plus so i wasnt trippin. So i get to tires plus, and as i am pulling in, everything in the car starts shutting down, so i assumed the battery was fucked, but i was at least at the right place. Anyways, the guy looks at it and the problem is the alternator, and it costs 600 hun-ed dollaz to replace, so now i hafta have a talk about the car with my parents, fuck that

Anyways, its nice out, and i cant play golf because i dont have clubs or a car. What a waste of a day.

I ain't pissed tho y'all

Deuces

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:31:09 GMT

Scratch the saturday bonfire deal... i got otha' shit to do

Deuces

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 00:23:00 GMT

So, as you may have noticed in my recent posts, the seniors left and it made me sad etc... Well sorry, but i really havent noticed their absence that much. Maybe its because most of the seniors i'm friends with didnt go to school that often.. I dunno, like it feels that there is something missing, and it is the class of '05, but its not a specific thing.. Sorry its hard to explain, but i guess the place i most see people is after school? and there never really was a large senior prescence there. I do miss you guys though, at least those of you that will read this.

So if it is nice on saturday night, i think there should be a bonfire somewhere. Maybe in my backyard, but i dont want that many people here, and without a lot of people it would be wack. The fact that there is a pool would add a nice touch to a bonfire. ( i now have a pool in my backyard, cause sadly i left the STP and now reside in Mendota Heights) Anyways, any thoughts on this bonfire idea should be left in comment form, bitches

Deuces y'all

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 18:11:09 GMT

So yesterday was the seniors last day, that suck. Im gonna miss them a lot, but no point in bitchin. After the assembly i cleaned up, then chilled in the back office for a little bit then i left school and went to a beach in minneapolis. Then i came home and swam again. I really regret my decision to leave school, i feel like it was a weak and impulsive decision that was basically stupid. Oh well, again no point in getting mad. Today there are a few open houses, im sad its not nice out because the open houses will suffer and now i cant have people over to swim tonight. But oh well another time eh.

My sister left today for new york, EVERYBODY IS LEAVING. it sucks that she is leaving too, a good thing is that she was home for like a month and we only fought.. twice i think other than that we got along real well. My sister rocks, and im gonna miss her, but im really excited for he opportunity in new york. She is interning at the place my brother works at, an advertising agency in manhattan. She really loves graphic design, and thats what she is interning for, so im sure shell have an awesome time

Deuces y'all

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 03:03:53 GMT

Again im going to whine about the seniors leaving. Its not the ones that im friends with mostly, its the ones im not and i wish i knew better. Quite a few of the seniors im friends with are going to the U. But the ones that arent, and i dont know i feel like i missed out. I hate that feeling , it almost makes me.. depressed. I feel like im abusing that word, but still thats pretty much how i feel... Oh well, hopefully i will be able to get to know some of them over the summer better through mutual friends or so'tin

Deuces, mu'fuckas

Mon, 30 May 2005 16:18:56 GMT

So this weekend has been prety sweeeettt. It has been nice out every day, nice meaning no pouring rain. And i had very little homework this weekend,no english paper or oral shit for me, i took AP mu'fuckas. Today is.. gorgeous. The sun is out, not too cloudy, good temperature. SO because of this i am going to finish a ceramics piece quickly then go play as much golf as possible. then i have to work and tomorrow is spring fever. Seniors last week, that is just crazy. I hate the end of the year, after the seniors leave because the hallways seem empty and after school iss just not the same. Usually the seniors have a place they always go after school, kinda by chapman's desk. And now after school that shit is gonna be empty, and that sucks. But on another note, fuck school on the mother fuckin real.

Tue, 24 May 2005 23:07:43 GMT

So the last two days have been really long. Yesterday was the stupid red-shirt activity, if you dont know what im talking about it was an activity bierman made up to give us a taste of what it was like to be a black youth in an integrated souther school during the 50s-60s. Then we had golf, it was fucking beautiful out, AND we got to hit off of the grass for the first time all year at the range. Then i had to work, meh...

Today i woke up, ate showered and went to play golf at our regional tournament. Basically, regions is only for the best players in the region and the best team and seeing as how i am nowhere near the best and neither is highland i just decided to not care about how i played and enjoy the nice, sunny day off from school. Then i came home, showered did a little homework, got chipotle and now im here

D-D-D-D-D-D-Deuces!!

PS I love mr. podas, he is hilarious and the greatest golf coach in the WORLD, hopefully i will play with him this summer

Sun, 22 May 2005 17:00:12 GMT

On another note.. for those of you who do not know, there was a 3 page long article on Rashade Coleman ( from our school, the rapist) in the Pioneer Press. So if you get the Pioneer Press, read it. If you don't go online and read it. Its really interesting

Music

Sun, 22 May 2005 16:52:14 GMT

OK, I am gonna post a list of all the CDs/artists I love right now, because they are tight.

4th Dimensional Rocketships Going Up- Gift of Gab

Labor Days- Aesop Rock

Same Shit Different Day- Lyrics Born

Beck (Anything)

Moondance- Van Morrison

E&A- Eyedea and Abilities

A Tiger Dancing- Heiruspecs

Yankee Hotel Foxtrot- Wilco

Deuces Y'all

Boatdance

Sat, 21 May 2005 17:13:18 GMT

Boatdance was pretty fun. I'm a little disappointed i didnt really chill with many of the seniors there though. I mean i talked with some of them for a while, but the ones i used to be friends with and now im not i barely saw. Like Lena and Megan (Ireland) , freshman year i chilled with them and greg alot and it was a buncha fun but i have not hung out with them since then. It makes me so sad that the seniors are gonna be gone, i dont have like a significant relationship with any of them, but im friends with some and the fact that i wont see them in the halls and say whatup to them after this year makes me real sad. I know its cliche to say " i wish i had talked to them more etc. " but i really do feel like that with a lot of the seniors. I guess this is my fault, cuz i think my personality kind of shies people away from me. I'm not saying im an inimidating person, but like i think since im an asshole a lot of the time, but im almost always joking. So i think the combination of me being an asshole and the fact that a lot of the times after i meet someone or if i know them , but am not like friends with them, i can never tell if they like me or not so i never know if i should try and be outgoing towards them or not...

Thats all for now

Deuces

Thu, 19 May 2005 22:45:31 GMT

So today was the easiest day it could have been aside from no classes. History- watched movies. Ceramics- fired Raku pieces. Math- movie and reading of newspaper. Band- I ran Student Council errands.

So boat dance is tomorrow, i guess im excited but whateva. It seems that this year has gone so fast. And soon the seniors will be gone, which makes me sad. I feel like i used to be better friends with quite a few of them, but that was back in the grandview days when a lot of tight people worked there. This year honestly has been a blur, it feels like so much has happened but so little at the same time. Again, i feel that since the beginning of this year a lot of relationships i had with people have dwindled. I dunno if that has to do with me or them or just the circumstances but whatever. I cant just complain though, ive developed relationships with people that have turned out to be really cool, so thats good.

So tonight, i was going to work hard on my history paper, which was due monday. But now its due thursday. So i was going to go to the Mars Volta concert, but my parents dont want me too. Oh well, i havent paid for the ticket so thats nice, but i did really wanna go. Oh well, nothing bitching will do about it. My mom is picking up noodles and company, which should be rather tasty

Deuces, mu'fuckas

Tue, 17 May 2005 23:24:06 GMT

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You were most probably:	Adolf Hitler
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Wed, 04 May 2005 00:05:29 GMT

Whatup y'all

I am currently eating this awesome, almost fancy pizza twist my mamma made. Today at golf, we almost beat como. Which is disappointing that we lost, but cool that we almost beat them. My day was pretty decent. I feel like crap, i have a cold. But i took some piillllzzz and they made me feel better and also my day was chill as fuck. First hour i just bullshitted some letter to the president. then ceramics was cool. third hour i dipped with pace and zach and went to chipotle where all these god damn little kids were. We were gonna stomp em. Then 4th hour was a student council meeting. Thats my day

In response to Megan's post about drinking. I have changed my views, and i think that drinking is not that bad of an idea, as long as there is someone sober there to make sure noone goes overboard. When people are just getting drunk and having a good time, compared to those who get fucking wasted and throw up and shit i have no problem. But i dunno my views are probably a little biast considering ive never gotten drunk before...

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 17:26:12 GMT

OK so I'm giving in and deciding to start posting again. I dunno why, but i feel like it. Anyways this week was real strange... it felt like thursday was a monday, which i guess means that the week went by fast. BUT thursday and friday took forever. Last night was a really cool night. After school i hung out with alex laskaris, ben dimock and neal dubya. it was real fun, we explored this place and then went to a concert. The concert was tight, because it was free and doomtree was fucking tight. BUT Eyedea was a let down, he just didnt seem to be the same as the last time i saw him so i was dissappointed with his performance.

Tonight i am attending a Atmosphere, POS, Grayskul and Vox Vermillion concert at first avenue with mr. kishel hopefully it will be toight.

Then afterwards maybe to Alex Diaz' house, or maybe to some sort of bonfire.. who knows

Im really excited for the finish to our golf season, our team started out tied for second and now we have dissappointedly slipped into third, but only by 1 point. SO, considering our conference tournament is at the new Highland Course which ian, sam and i know very well i think we have a chance at at least taking second if not slipping into first. Its so much fun being on a team that can do well, our team has such good chemistry and when we play well we can compete with every team.

On another note, I think that everyone should attend a local hip-hop show. Every single person i have ever seen at a hip hop concert enjoyed it. Even if you dont know the group or anyone there, the environment is just amazing, and you can really relate to the lyrical content. PLUS, there is always a good diverse group of people there and the energy in the crowds is just.. amazing

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 17:29:06 GMT

"ACHTUNG!

i_self_divine may actually be a spider-human hybrid

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Thu, 31 Mar 2005 05:08:31 GMT

iTunes Quiz

How many total songs?
1568
Sort by Song Title - first and last songs?
!!!!!!- the Roots
Zimzallabim- Mos Def
Sort by Time - first and last songs?
Act Fore.. The End -5 seconds- The Roots
Street Official Mixtape- 24.28- Various Artists
Top Ten Played Songs
5ves-Heiruspecs
Public Service Announcement- Jay-Z
Heartsprings- Heiruspecs
This Is How We Do- Game &50 cent (I know its lame, but that shit bumps)
Marching Orders- Heiruspecs
Theme From Hi-Tek (Featuring Talib Kweli)- Talib Kweli and Hi-Tek
Get By- Talib Kweli
Green Eyes- Coldplay
Clocks- Colplay
While My Guitar Gently Weeps- The Beatles

Last Ten Played
Heat- 5o cent
Can I Kick it- Tribe Called Quest
Amber-311
Atmosphere- shit offa overcast!(not naming all those songs)
Find 'sex.' How many songs show up?
5

Find 'death.' How many songs show up?
1
Find 'love.' How many songs show up?
78

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 00:50:00 GMT

Although I said I was done with this thing...

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 04:33:42 GMT

peace out everybody that reads this, it has been taken way too seriously. people need to lighten up. if you know me, you know pretty much 75% of the time im joking around. and i am a douchebag, but 75% im a joking douchebag, but you cant tell sarcasm through typed words on a computer, so this is stupid and is not a representation of me at all

PEACE OUT